To you

I wanted to be happy for you.
I do, I really do but...

My heart, mind and entire being is just full of hatred, jealousy, envy, sorrow, and bottled up emotions.
I just cant be 100% supportive towards you.
I want too but somewhere in myself, I hate you.

I hate everything about you.
I hate how you have everything that I can't have.
I hate how you can live your life unlike mine.

I know I'm not the best kind of human being like this but..

Cycle

The cycle of life...
You know~
It goes like this :-

Life > Adolescence > Adulthood > Plateau > Death

Its a beautiful cycle of all living being.
Some might think differently but for me, that is the cycle.

Now, I have my own cycles.
I have a cycle of self-hate and craving.
I got more than 2 but there are all random cycles.

Crying

All over the years that I had live,
I am a cry baby...
I love to cry...
I mean its like each week I would cry a few time.

Its not mainly because I'm sad,
The cause would always be me.
I taunt and bully myself to the point of crying.
This cycle happen each day.
I would try to not cry.

Custard Cream Puffs~ (Food Journal #3)

Lets just say.
I made them because my mum asked for it~

This all happen on Saturday.
My mum suddenly ask me to make them puffs~
So since I wasnt feeling lazy, I made them~
XD


I didnt have any milk at that time...
So made my custard with creamer~
The custard turn out a bit heavy but *shrugs* meh~
Its delish and you will just have to be jelly bout it~
Nyahahahahahah~

My tiny project~

Last Saturday,
I went out with my parents and brothers to go buy school stuffs for them.
Well since we were there,
I went touring the whole shop.

My bro went all out of folders, stationary and stuff.
Since I just finish my semester,
I don't need immediate stationary.

I stop at the craft part of the shop.
There's puzzle, coloring book, and stuffs~
Then I saw the cutest mini art craft.
Its a DIY cross stitch key chain.

A Week Has Gone By~ (Food Journal #2)

Why a week???
Well it has been a week since my final.
I am now currently at home with my parent until next month.

Now that I am home, I have nothing to do...
Except for eating, play games, sleep, and repeat,
I basically dont have anything particular major to do.

While doing nothing,
I decided I should start complaining again here.
Here goes my first blog post in a while~
Weeeee~

Im just that way.

You know when you're exited.
You tend to have a trait that just shows that you are, well, exited.

I have a tendency to speak in a louder voice.
It seems that tendency to annoy some people.
I can't say that I'm sorry because of that.
It's just to show, I'm happy and glad about that particular situation.

Why can't you be happy that im baring my feeling for you which i seldom do.
Because im an awkward person where human interaction is like alien to me.

So am i still wrong???

Invention That Should Be Invented...???

Have you ever felt that there should be an invention that can help you do something???

Well, I wish that there would be a machine or an item that could separate me with my emotional self.

Cause when I get too excited, I really, really get too exited.
This is probably because I don't have a proper way of expelling the accumulating excitement~

This happens with other emotions too~
Be it sad, happy, moody and so on and so forth.

Heih...
So tiring~

A month~

Hai - hai~
A month of not writing anything~
I'm sorry.
Apparently got nothing to write.

This also signals its been a month since my class start~
I'm currently extending my years.
Yeah, boohoo, I'm not that clever.

Being crazy and hectic for now.
I can't write anything due to I have no topic to complain about.

Well, bye for now~

Food Journal #1

Before, in my old blog.
I used to post about food.
But I accidentally deleted the pictures.
So I delete all those posts.

Now, I'll try to restart it back~

Weddings~

A friend of mine from primary school got married.
I went to her wedding with my friends.

It's so awkward that they are getting married while you still trying to figure out who do you like.
Yeah, mighty awkward.

I don't know what to get her too.
I might have to come empty handed like the poor person I am.
But my Mama came to save the day~
She had an item, just lodging around.

Catching up... BoReD #7

Hi, in this segment, I will post weird and random stuff.
Well, because I'm bored and probably have nothing to complain. Yet...
Please comment me suggestion on topics that I can complain on.

I have had this segment since my previous blog.
This is the first one. (Click me~!!! ヽ|▰･ิ□･ิ▰|ノ)

Parents, don't you just love them, hmm???

Thursday, 21st of August, 2014.

P/s: Please read this light-heartedly as possible. This is a personal point of views only. All of this is from a personal experience.

Yes, yes, please read the title as sarcastic as possible.
They are so lovable and hate-able at the same time more than I can imagine it happening.
After more than 2 decades with them, I just can't decide.
Whether I want to live with or without them.

They are our beginning and would be the end of some of us.
They are our life and our death in this tiny world call family.
They are our joy and our pain at the same time as do us to them too.
They are our parents.

I can't say that we don't give them few loose strings too, raising us bratty ass.
We gave them a whole new meaning to crazy, drunk and wild children.
To handle our quirks and temper tantrums, they have gone over backwards to solve them.
This result in very weird children like myself. Yes. I admit I grew up weird.

Out of date

Apparently blogging is out of date.

Oh, well.

I still like writing rather than do a video logging.

I can't talk properly in front of a camera.

When you go blog jumping.

All that I can see are post dates until 2 - 3 years back.

There is even way longer than that.

Wow.

I'm an awkward person

Tuesday, 19th of August, 2014, 0520 hours.

I don't know what happened during my childhood, but it made me a really awkward person today.

The reason for this might be a long post cause I don't know when will I run out of inspiration to write this down is, I noticed how I am so unaccustomed to people or seem like it.
I don't know.
I might correct it later down in the post.

As you can read this, isn't that whole paragraph, well, like, weird or something???

Deal breaker (Adventure - Part 2/End)

Sunday,
I find out yesterday that my mum had a wedding invitation at Silkroad.
So I had to cancel my plan with my friends.
They were disappointed as do I.
Alas the story must go on.

Well, I followed my parents to Silkroad.
As yesterday story, traffic is an enemy of mine.
As usual, Malaysian's traffic is that great~

We got around afternoon.
I had the same wedding meal as yesterday.
Cattering~

Coincidences??? I think not. (Adventure - Part 1)

Tuesday, 19 of August, 2014, 0050 hours.

The adventure of me going out with my primary school friends.

My dear Lala, Yanyan and Raerae.
The story pans out to 2 days, which is on Sat and Sun~

I was invited by them to go to Raerae's house over at Neverland~
I did receive an invitation from Raerae since last week, but alas, I have no transport go to Neverland.
I was also in luck when my friends, Lala and Yanyan got invited by Raerae this week.
So they, in turn, invited me to come along too.
I can't say no to that, I agreed to follow.
(p/s: of course the names and places are not real and are made up to make it easy for me to tell the story~)
(pp/s: as you read this, please do so in a bubbly, girliest, and pinkish way possible. It will make the story seem more puke-able~)

No electricity

15 August 2014,
No electricity in the house for now.
Writing it down in a book first.
Will type it out later...

I wrote a blog at 3 am today.
Woke up at 2 pm.
When the electricity has gone already.
Kind of hot, but thanks to the constant wind, I'm not that sweaty.

I'm not full-time happy, but should I???

Friday, 15th of August 2014, 0338 hours.

Assalamualaikum w. b. t. and Good Day to all~

What would you want to make yourself the happiest person, regardless the effects, affects, costs, probabilities and liabilities???

Some would answer those typical answers,
"Money, Fame, Power, Love and etc..."

But is that it???

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