To you

I wanted to be happy for you.
I do, I really do but...

My heart, mind and entire being is just full of hatred, jealousy, envy, sorrow, and bottled up emotions.
I just cant be 100% supportive towards you.
I want too but somewhere in myself, I hate you.

I hate everything about you.
I hate how you have everything that I can't have.
I hate how you can live your life unlike mine.

I know I'm not the best kind of human being like this but..

Cycle

The cycle of life...
You know~
It goes like this :-

Life > Adolescence > Adulthood > Plateau > Death

Its a beautiful cycle of all living being.
Some might think differently but for me, that is the cycle.

Now, I have my own cycles.
I have a cycle of self-hate and craving.
I got more than 2 but there are all random cycles.

Crying

All over the years that I had live,
I am a cry baby...
I love to cry...
I mean its like each week I would cry a few time.

Its not mainly because I'm sad,
The cause would always be me.
I taunt and bully myself to the point of crying.
This cycle happen each day.
I would try to not cry.

Custard Cream Puffs~ (Food Journal #3)

Lets just say.
I made them because my mum asked for it~

This all happen on Saturday.
My mum suddenly ask me to make them puffs~
So since I wasnt feeling lazy, I made them~
XD


I didnt have any milk at that time...
So made my custard with creamer~
The custard turn out a bit heavy but *shrugs* meh~
Its delish and you will just have to be jelly bout it~
Nyahahahahahah~

My tiny project~

Last Saturday,
I went out with my parents and brothers to go buy school stuffs for them.
Well since we were there,
I went touring the whole shop.

My bro went all out of folders, stationary and stuff.
Since I just finish my semester,
I don't need immediate stationary.

I stop at the craft part of the shop.
There's puzzle, coloring book, and stuffs~
Then I saw the cutest mini art craft.
Its a DIY cross stitch key chain.

A Week Has Gone By~ (Food Journal #2)

Why a week???
Well it has been a week since my final.
I am now currently at home with my parent until next month.

Now that I am home, I have nothing to do...
Except for eating, play games, sleep, and repeat,
I basically dont have anything particular major to do.

While doing nothing,
I decided I should start complaining again here.
Here goes my first blog post in a while~
Weeeee~